easy talking , hard to do :)

when your past has totally awaken you ..
what would you do ?
do you really get changed ?
so what would happen to the person after him/her ?
will they accept it just the way it is ?
come on ..
what are people expecting from you ?
yeah PEEPS ..
let's just name it ..
list out all the expectations .
maybe it will make EACH ONE of you satisfied .
yeah . pure satisfaction guaranteed perhaps .
argh . dammit .
i cant deny the fact that everybody in this scene is a jerk.
i hate that the fact people are expecting me to smile always..
if it's said that your world is turning grey ..
will you just keep on smiling?
or just end up doing nothing ?
dont you feel like fighting for your rights at all ?
dont you feel like it was merely a nightmare ?
dont you feel that you're just nothing ?
i hate that the fact people are asking me to think at the positive sides ...
oh yea ? does it really work for you whenever you're going through hard times ?
how could you develope such way of thinking when your mind is not in your soul ?
answer me please..
yeah .. the fact is the soul is breaking up slowly actually ..
hmm.. i'm telling ya . my soul is rather screaming like mad ..
because everything does not fall into place anymore ..
and please .. dont push me to pretend ..
argh , fcuk it !
i hate that i'm the next person .
i hate that i owned a fragile heart .
i hate that i have to swallow everything inside my throat until my last breath.
do they know that it's kinda hard for me to keep on breathing after all ?
urgh . i feel so suffocating at the moment ..
it's aching so hard inside here ..
no body knows .. i hide it inside for so long ..
but then ,
just put yourself in my shoes ..
experience it for a short period ..
and you may find that you're just nothing more like a loser ..
by the way mates , thanks for trying :) ( only if you really do )