how i wish i could have an apparatus called the 'timer turner'

firstly,
i'm sorry for the incomplete me ..
i'm sorry for the 'mess life' i'd had before..
i'm sorry for the imperfect me ..
i'm sorry for all the weakness that i'm having inside me ..
i'm sorry for everything i've done or said that might hurt you people..
i dont know what else to say ..
it's just a very deep sorry from the bottom of my heart ..

i dont even have the power to make things fall right into places every single time in my life ..
i am just an ordinary person .and i admit i've done a lot of mistakes in life ..
very much that i regret of until these days .. but i just keep it to myself and rather trying to
take them as my precious lessons ever . i am telling you .. please dont doubt me ..
i'm leading my steps forward . i aint looking back no more .. i've taken
all the goodness and i've left behind all the bad things a thousand miles away from me ..
i'd be struggling with myself just to stay away from such 'disasters'. i beg for everyone .. please don't ..

to whom it may concern ..
no matter what . i want you to know that ..
i'm doing all it takes just to change ..
if you could see it with a couple of your eyes ..
if you could feel it with a plain heart ..
if you could touch it with the warmness of your hands ..
i'm letting the world to see through me ..
i am doing great for myself ..
a lot better than before i would say ..


truly ,
syafinaz nordin